Coming Home

Coming home to yourself or your space after being away for some time can be a very daunting experience. I have been on my way home since I entered this reality more than 40 years ago. I do feel to a great extent that I know who I am and more or less where I am headed, yet, each time I return to my home land from my travels abroad, I feel quite out of place, like i don't belong.

Over the years I have learned that, even though we have left our home for a time to grow or expand ourselves in some way, what catches us off guard is how normal everything is when we return. The uneasiness sets in when we actually see the change that has happened within us and how our familiar world reacts to our new vibration and view of the world.

Familiar, yet, unfamiliar. We are aware of the world we left behind, everything is just as it was, but its different in some way. For some time, it can be difficult to understand what it is until one day, we finally see it. The familiarity is with what we remember, the unfamiliarity is with our new vibration. With our new vibration, our old world looks totally different. We see things we didn't see before. We notice certain behaviors in the people around us that we had previously accepted as normal, and to some extent might not have even been aware of. And this is where the real work begins.....

To maintain a new vibration while surrounded by the old one is no easy task. We must find a place of acceptance, forgiveness and surrender within ourselves, for ourselves and for the people and situations around us. Remembering to remember is one of the hardest things to do.

Don't run if you can help it, but don't just sit there in pain either. Allow each part of the change to unfold naturally. Don't force anything. Just allow. Its easier said than done I know, but it will get easier with practice. And that's exactly what this is, practice. We are practicing at getting better at life. If something isn't working, then stop doing it and try something else.

We are creatures of habit. More often than not, we are unaware of what it is that is standing in our way of growth, which is OK, we cant know what we don't know. We have these habits that have been learned for one reason or another and we continue them unaware. But once we do know, and see, if we don't do anything about it then we are to blame, all by ourselves. Do not blame others for not seeing, this only causes resentment.

Be the change you want to see in the world and allow that change to be seen by those who are ready to grow. Do not force anything on the unwilling. We all want the best for our loved ones, but who are we to say what is in their path and karma, we cant know. So just be the change and allow them to see by themselves. If it is for them then they will see it. Happiness is contagious...

Find something joyful to do everyday. We all have something we enjoy doing. So do it, and allow yourself to enjoy it without judgment.

I have found that by doing these few things, I continue to grow and expand to the max that my container of reality can hold. I've gotten used to feeling uncomfortable and staying in the firing line to see what happens. More often than not, the situation is a trigger for me to work through, and once i face it, it just goes away.... simple!

So be gentle with yourself and the world around you while returning home to yourself. Be brave, be strong, be free, but most importantly be kind and gentle to yourself and the new world that you see unfolding before your eyes.

All my love and blessings....

Published
December 6, 2022
Author
Andrew Mee
Category
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The map of life is a beautiful and exciting collection of experiences. Each experience we choose is uniquely amazing in its own way and will only ever happen once.

Life is about experiencing each moment in as much depth as you possibly can because you will never get a second chance at that experience. There is only ever one first time.

A loss of something dear to you is something you should explore and understand, appreciate it fully because that feeling of loss that you are experiencing is verification that it made a difference to your life. Celebrate the loss by fully experiencing it. Then let it go, to allow yourself to experience something new. Not to replace it but rather to move on to something else that can fulfil your life and allow yourself to gain once again something life changing.

Its been a year since my last blog post. After coming back home from Peru, the personal journey that I had undertaken began to present opportunities to heal and expand myself. I went through a few months of ups and downs, each experience presenting old patterns that needed attention. With each redirection, a new experience presented itself to be explored.

I had the most amazing summer last year with a very dear friend. We spent our days meditating and exploring many ideas and subsequently had some very deep conversations that fundamentally changed our perspective of many areas of our lives.

One of these discussions was about the world view of the divine feminine and divine masculine and the battle that is being waged within each and every human being as a result. We are conditioned to reject balance within ourselves which has caused a wide feeling of unknowing. It has caused people to search and drive towards money and personal achievements in a bid to feel whole and accomplished. But we are at soul level, at source, neither feminine nor masculine. We are only pure energy. We are at our core, already balanced. We need not search outside for what we contain within.

This discussion led me to explore my own internal balance and thus began to present many areas of my life that I had neglected or damaged as a result of this conditioning. And so, I began to align myself with the next phase of my healing journey.

About 5 years ago, I began to manifest a series of events and arguments that subsequently ended up in my loosing contact with my 3 children. Those events are not important to me now. What is important is what they led me to realise about myself and the world we live in. I realise now that I had completely rejected my internal feminine self and as a result had waged an external attack on all the women in my life who presented any sort of challenge to me. I began looking for reasons to distance myself from them. My internal balance was hugely off, and so my external world mirrored that back to me. Instead of trying to find a balance with these women and create a place of understanding, I created my experience outside to match what I was feeling inside.

Through my journey I have learned some very interesting soul connection techniques that can literally help to shape your reality. This very potent level of meditation coupled with the law of attraction can bring the experiences you want to have into your life with great speed and precision. So, I began to put to work everything I had learned.

Over the coming days and weeks, I built my desired reality in my heart and in my being. I Imagined this with ultimate clarity and precision. I imagined myself sitting in a soft chair in front of my little old house with the love of my life sitting next to me while we enjoyed the sun and the soft breeze on our faces. I could see My eldest daughter and my son coming up to the house to visit, bringing with them my youngest daughter, their half sister. I imagined laughing and joking with the mothers of my children and their partners, one big happy family, everyone getting along and wanting to help each other. I imagined us all sharing pure love together, family love.

I sat with this vision and built on it for a number of weeks, creating it ever more clearer and bringing it closer with every added detail. Then, quite naturally, I stopped the process and had forgotten about it until one day, only a few weeks ago, my mum brought up my eldest daughter in conversation. I believed she would be back, and without setting a time frame or having any expectations, i remembered the vision. I reminded my mum that she would be back and not to set any limits. We left it at that.

One day out of the blue just last week, my eldest daughters mum called to tell me that my daughter wanted to arrange a meeting. This was the first contact I'd had in almost two years. I was ecstatic! I knew that the work I had done on myself in healing the imbalance coupled with visualising my desires for the future had begun to materialise. I took a deep breath, and without expectation, I began to open up a line of loving and understanding communication with her.

This is my chance to create something new after I have grieved and healed the old.

Remapping your life takes a lot of courage in facing yourself, requires a lot of tears and pain to heal, and calls for action when an opportunity presents itself. Treat people how you expect to be treated. Be kind, be humble, be a visionary.

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