This word is new to me, yet the notion of it is ingrained in my consciousness.
For many years, right back to my childhood, I have been pondering this notion....
And yet, I have felt it for reasons I am unable to make clear sense of....
Many of my uncles, aunties, cousins and even siblings have traveled the world down through the years but none without destination or design that I am aware of.
This word is a revelation to me!!
For many years I thought I must be crazy...
The notion of heading to one place or another somewhere over the horizon, not yet decided in this present moment...
Clinging tightly to.... trust!?
Ha Ha!!
Crazy? Well... probably!
Not normal? Well.... As a good old friend of mine once said... "Show me normal, and I'll show you a liar".... Ha Ha!!! I truly love that statement BC.

So, I must Trust...

Trust my destiny unfolds with cause bringing me ever closer to my unknown destination...
Where I am to be....
At that right time...
For that right reason...
To do that or hear that or witness that one thing... Or not...
Maybe the whole purpose is to be "there"...
Wherever "there" is...
The idea of this has been a kind of dream of mine, and for many people out there I'm sure.
To trust in ones journey so implicitly without destination, To just be in every moment, every step, every breath...
Its an amazing notion indeed.

"To travel in a purposeful manner towards a vague destination"

A total leap of faith!

Sometimes in life we must take a leap of faith.
For many out there, that leap of faith is much closer to home and yet every bit as blindfolded as my leap of faith.
Your migration, Your new job offer, You new marriage proposal, Your new baby plans, Your first home etc....
A leap of faith is always a total trust that everything will be OK, and will be as it was meant to be...
So, I have no true idea why I am going or where, or how long for.
From there, my mystery will unfold, moment by moment, experience by experience, until I feel that my purpose has been completed.
Some may say it is an early mid life crisis...

Ha ha!!

Well... So what if it is?

I am the one jumping!!

I stand alone on this last eve,
A life so full behind me.
In feeling piece my shattered life,
Bless-ed was my journey.

A tear I shed in mourning past,
In feeling more a stranger,
To a life I fought for heart and nails,
In crawling for my savior.

I am but boy in this grown skin,
Playful kind and true,
The love I feel for every me,
Is a beautiful baby blue.

I am instrumental life and change,
Here in this one man band,
Seeds of dreams twinkling daylight,
Awaiting a heart felt command.
I laugh in pass a moments gesture,
My path ahead so righteous,
I leave behind an empty dream,
In seeking life's great adventures.

It is sure to be that time will pass,
As a rover I'll saddle the road,
Another land a dream may be,
The unknown, no fixed abode.

Around the corner is out of sight,
A total guess it would be,
Stand in my shoes turned back,
There is no way you can see.

A total change a life turned around,
They would hardly even know me,
I stand in strength on this solid ground,
And I'll trust my guides unfold me.