Coming home to yourself or your space after being away for some time can be a very daunting experience. I have been on my way home since I entered this reality more than 40 years ago. I do feel to a great extent that I know who I am and more or less where I am headed, yet, each time I return to my home land from my travels abroad, I feel quite out of place, like i don't belong.

Over the years I have learned that, even though we have left our home for a time to grow or expand ourselves in some way, what catches us off guard is how normal everything is when we return. The uneasiness sets in when we actually see the change that has happened within us and how our familiar world reacts to our new vibration and view of the world.

Familiar, yet, unfamiliar. We are aware of the world we left behind, everything is just as it was, but its different in some way. For some time, it can be difficult to understand what it is until one day, we finally see it. The familiarity is with what we remember, the unfamiliarity is with our new vibration. With our new vibration, our old world looks totally different. We see things we didn't see before. We notice certain behaviors in the people around us that we had previously accepted as normal, and to some extent might not have even been aware of. And this is where the real work begins.....

To maintain a new vibration while surrounded by the old one is no easy task. We must find a place of acceptance, forgiveness and surrender within ourselves, for ourselves and for the people and situations around us. Remembering to remember is one of the hardest things to do.

Don't run if you can help it, but don't just sit there in pain either. Allow each part of the change to unfold naturally. Don't force anything. Just allow. Its easier said than done I know, but it will get easier with practice. And that's exactly what this is, practice. We are practicing at getting better at life. If something isn't working, then stop doing it and try something else.

We are creatures of habit. More often than not, we are unaware of what it is that is standing in our way of growth, which is OK, we cant know what we don't know. We have these habits that have been learned for one reason or another and we continue them unaware. But once we do know, and see, if we don't do anything about it then we are to blame, all by ourselves. Do not blame others for not seeing, this only causes resentment.

Be the change you want to see in the world and allow that change to be seen by those who are ready to grow. Do not force anything on the unwilling. We all want the best for our loved ones, but who are we to say what is in their path and karma, we cant know. So just be the change and allow them to see by themselves. If it is for them then they will see it. Happiness is contagious...

Find something joyful to do everyday. We all have something we enjoy doing. So do it, and allow yourself to enjoy it without judgment.

I have found that by doing these few things, I continue to grow and expand to the max that my container of reality can hold. I've gotten used to feeling uncomfortable and staying in the firing line to see what happens. More often than not, the situation is a trigger for me to work through, and once i face it, it just goes away.... simple!

So be gentle with yourself and the world around you while returning home to yourself. Be brave, be strong, be free, but most importantly be kind and gentle to yourself and the new world that you see unfolding before your eyes.

All my love and blessings....

I pray for me to be there for you,
To hold space and to care for you,
To clear my vision and open my eyes,
To see your despair and to realize.

I pray for me to be humble and pure,
To sing healing songs while you tumble and cure,
To send out love and ground down that pain,
While the tears from your cry fall around you like rain.

I pray for me to trust this old process,
To heal myself true and open this fortress,
To beg for forgiveness, respect and love,
To honor this journey that is guided from above.

I pray for me to watch you grow,
While you wander around with that wonderful glow,
To pray for you while you pray to be free,
I'll sit in this love, in this honor and see.